feeling

ermm... seems like everything has settled down.. everything has been decided, I got my valuable answer which seems like not an answer to me. Cos i was the one no time to wait, maybe it will be different ending if i have time? hell know~ But, a lot of things are not under my control.. what i can do now is facing it optimistically instead of treating myself badly~

However, I do feel better now, Cos I got nothing to worry anymore. No One is waiting for my answer anymore. I can proudly tell my parents about my future plan now. Even tho it might not be final, but I will go back to Malaysia together with them right after I graduate which is May 2009.

Thanks to my parents who always be patient to me even though I didnt care about their request. It had come to an end when my sister start talking to me. I can't disobey her, she treated me very well since I was a baby. :)

Is this a good ending? Is this what I wanted to see?
The answer is No. I don't want to see this. I always believe in my sense. I know there is something, and I already got my answer directly which support my sense, but, just like what I mention, a lot of things is not under my control. If I were not facing this kind of situation, I will not do this to myself! hehe~ I wish I still got a lot of time in ISU.. But in fact, I only left very limited time here. Too many decisions to be made.

My feelings wont fade off that easily. I am not you. I will be there whenever you need someone, cause I care. But, the different is, I won't think of it anymore. This is why I insisted to get a final answer. Too many reasons that forced me to do so.

Lastly, I do respect your decision, I do respect your principal, I do respect you when you said you cant break your promise because you cant hurt someone.
******I am superhuman, I don't feel pain~******

Thanks for giving me so much memorable moment!

Release